processing

yesterday was a rough day. i woke up feeling odd, and was never really able to figure out why. i'm inclined to say that it was mostly emotional (with the clinical depression, anything that affects my hormones, sends the depression spiraling. whether up or down, i can never guess). i tried to get some things done, but it was difficult.
then, last night, we went and visited some friends. we had apple pie a la mode, and played games and talked. it was really nice. they had been through a difficult miscarriage in the past and completely understood how hard it was for me. she let me talk, and didn't make me feel like i was being ungrateful because i already have 5 healthy kids.

last night, the insomnia hit again. even though we didn't get home until after 12 last night, it was nearly 3 before i fell asleep. michael woke up about 1:30 with charlie horses, and i laid with him for a bit, he joined me in my bed around 6 this morning though.

shannon didn't feel well yesterday. she lounged around and pretty much "vanished" (this is the child that is always running and doing SOMETHING). in the afternoon she complained that her head hurt, i told her she could go finish the movie they were watching or go to bed. she went to bed...! when she woke up, shaun discovered that she had a fever! 102.5... i was surprised; especially since she said the only thing wrong was that her head hurt. gave her some tylenol, and she rebounded after it kicked in.

this morning, she was warm again, but so was taylor... i still haven't figured out what they had, but they both seem to be doing better now.

i'm hoping that things will just continue to get better and that i won't have any really bad days. but only time will tell.