shaun

shaun's counseling last week revealed some things to the therapist that he hadn't been fully aware of. partly because shaun always feels like he's vomiting his problems when he talks about them.

shaun told him that he's to the point that he no longer cares. that he doesn't know why he keeps going or trying cause it seems like nothing ever changes. this was not anything new to me, but it was to the therapist. he got really concerned. he wants us to see a doctor about possible meds. shaun doesn't believe in them, and sees no reason why he should take them. he agreed to go, but only to get us off his back. 

in talking with them both, i revealed my history to the therapist. it doesn't bother me, and will hopefully help him understand where i'm coming from when we talk about shaun. most of it shaun knew, a few things he didn't. but, the therapist was amazed at how i can be so positive after everything that's happened. when the other option is despair, no thanks. i'll take the positive any day!

so, i made an appointment for shaun, and he says he'll go, but he doesn't plan on asking for anything or taking it if it's given to him. ...so, what's the purpose in going?

i'm kind of hoping that things will change, but i'm going to keep my hopes up.