Hit by the Economy to the Soul

So, we have finally met some really bad parts of the economic crunch. A good friend of mine from Graveyard shift at Walmart was fired a couple of weeks ago, which meant a loss of roof over head only because he couldn't find another job! We know of the perfect place for him, but he doesn't have anything yet, or place to call home. Therefore, it was simple...we have a hid-a-bed and an extra space in the front room. He is close to town businesses and will not have to worry about home or hunger until he lands a job. It didn't take long to get it all in tow...4 days to completely move him and make the transition. My only concern in this was the sacrifice's consequences to my schooling. I totally believe in people being first, and more than deserving of sacrifices. Somehow I must make up for the loss in schedule. I even have one late assignment already!!! I knew something was to fall out, but I did not expect one more thing to add on. It is my expectation that Walmart will fall out...unless the art clients I have do first. I would much rather that Walmart be left behind honestly. I never expected to work there this long at all. I only worry about the HUGE load of criticism I will get for doing it. We have a healthy tax return and my loan coming in, of which it is not wise to consider as a proper income, for it will not only have an abrupt end, but a lengthy consequence in the end. So, what will it be? Meleleuca is falling behind, which makes me very sad actually. Couldn't I serve my time in earnings into that instead? Especially if it is what I prefer? Well, at 2 am, I am still days behind and nearing my exhaustion point. I have been praying more and more lately, and reading my scriptures every day. It is a hard position to be in to know that all things I do directly affect my family and my friend now, and that my downfall is theirs too. I the last moments of the day with Nadia, she simply mentioned that everything might work out ok anyway. I would hope so actually. I have no need of worrying anymore, just action, work and progress. There is more than enough to do. Only the Lord can help me carry this load. I simply and truly cannot do it without him, but as the scripture says, all things are possible with the Lord. And as what I do is or is not in righteousness, I will or I will not accomplish my desires and goals. I pray that what I do is smiled upon by the Lord and He opens the windows of Heaven itself. Everyone is in need, and He is our God, and we can ALL ask. The promises are not limited as a while supplies last issue. It is time we put our faith in Him during this famine. Otherwise we are as we fear, and will remain in darkness and be swallowed by our doom, yes, even by the world and the crumbling foundation thereof... Build upon Christ, not the world. To act and not to be acted upon, we must ask of Him, learn His ways, and do them! Remember who we are. The flesh is weak, but the spirit is willing here. Stretched thin, but eager and excited. Run ragged and stumbling, I pray for us all...I do not believe myself in any special predicament that is not common to man...especially in this time of economic famine. I indeed must remember that I am blessed, and greatly so. Well, Please forgive the bad grammar, the poor exhortions...I am overrun with pressure, emotion, and grindings of the heart and mind. I would that my fears and weaknesses be swallowed up in the faith in the Lord. Either by way of Jobe's trial, or of Elijah's...Of Moroni's or Nephi's, I am seeking out the hand of the Lord, that trusting in Him will not fail me my most precious of all: my family. I have much to do, but of the many priorities, sleep must become one. I do so now, and give rest to my weariness. May we all help a neighbor, show our time to another in need, pull anothers wagon who has fallen in the dust of the journey along the way to the promised land. Let it not be that darkness fall upon us, for here faith will be built in us all. Good Night.